Worst Enemy Within

Water flows through you gently, swiftly, with precision
Each reaction in your body magnified
From tiny potentials of energy to a full on lift of 100 lbs
Everything at your mind's whim

Suddenly you feel something
Pain, happiness, pride, guilt, loneliness
Good or bad, these emotions remind you you're alive
No longer in a video game where you have complete control

You start to feel the vibrations of your heart
Each thud stronger, faster...
A dramatic climax in the movie of your life
Your mind, spinning, in a swirl like pudding

How do you control that which is inside you?
A ticking bomb implanted deep inside
The trigger guided singlehandedly by your emotions
A cascade of events that play out as a result of one thought

Whether it is self-inflicted pity, anger, love, depression
The "self" is no longer the individual anymore
It's as if someone else is playing your game
You the puppet, the guinea pig, at least until time out's over

If the pain beats the pleasure,  you fight
In a final attempt you grab the controls
But where to steer? No idea where you are, or how you got there
Lost by yourself with only one guide with you
Helpless you hand over power
A prisoner, a weapon of your own self-destruction